The typical “Harvard introduction” includes your name, major, hometown, and what House (dorm) you’re in. I’ve always had difficulty explaining where I’m from.
I lived most of my life in a rural town in Montana called Columbia Falls. It was very small—around 5000 people filled the place I called home. I would say I spent the happiest times of my childhood there. From the ages of four to fourteen, my years were spent enjoying the two to three feet of snow we'd get each year, hiking the beautiful Glacier National Park on weekends, and admiring the deer and bears that would visit my backyard from time to time.
My sister and I enjoying huckleberry ice cream in the middle of winter in Montana.
The huckleberry is our unofficial state fruit. Nalda Pizarro
I made some very close friends in Montana, some that I keep in touch with even now. While college wasn’t a topic that came up very often for middle schoolers, my friends and I still chatted about it here and there. In a small town, there’s often the idea that some people never want to leave, while others do. I was part of the latter half—while I loved my small town, I knew I wanted to explore other places and experience what it’s like to live somewhere other than Montana for college. Therefore, the idea of moving away didn’t scare me as it did others. I knew it would be part of my "growing up" process. I was okay with it. At least, I thought I was.
I just had no idea it would be so soon. I would end up moving nearly 2000 miles south to Texas in the summer before my freshman year of high school, where almost everything was different. At the time, it felt like the hardest thing I had ever done in my life. I remember sobbing to my parents that I didn't want to leave Montana. I was afraid to leave the bubble I had grown up in. I spent my whole life building friendships and thriving in this town. The community was so tight-knit—we all knew and looked out for each other. I had no idea how to start over.
But we did. It felt like we packed our entire life into my mom's Ford Explorer; squeezing our dining dishes in between the car seats, and holding our cat in our laps as we drove past Wyoming, Colorado, and Oklahoma, until we reached Texas.
The three of us in front of the Texas state sign.
We look very tired because that was our third day of driving across the country.
Adjusting to this new environment was just as hard as I had imagined. It took many nights of feeling alone, missing the quiet nights of a small town, and the embrace of a community. Only those that have lived in a small town know what I'm talking about. It's hard to duplicate that experience anywhere else.
I made Montana my entire personality for a solid two years after—you can ask my friends that too. Eventually, I would let go of my tight grip on the place I used to call home. I realized that I needed to let it go in order to love and accept the new city I lived in.
The raw pain of missing home eventually subsides. You learn to make new memories, meet new people, and every day, you'll linger just a little bit more outside, and realize that you're alright.
I won't lie and say that adjusting to Harvard was easy because of this past experience. But, I would say that I had to go through this hard experience in order to understand that the raw pain of missing home eventually subsides. You learn to make new memories, meet new people, and every day, you'll linger just a little bit more outside, and realize that you're alright.
To all those adapting to a new city, college, state, country, or home: it will be okay.
Here I posed with my new team to celebrate our victory in my first game of flag football. I even taught the team how to sign "K" for Kirkland House in ASL
A sign welcoming new Quincy house residents on Housing Day!
Secquoia with her mom and sister at a family weekend event!
A view with my food from my first year, eating in the famous Annenberg Hall.
My friends from my entryway and I pose for a picture together before we go kayaking!
A selfie with six of my block mates, two of which performed in this dance show!
Ana's Harvard (Friends)
A photo taken in my last class at Harvard with one of my closest friends my senior year.
A photo of myself looking at the Zanzibari waters
My blocking group and I after being dorm stormed
My room in the wonderful Stoughton Hall!
My bookshelf in my dorm!
Seniors at the Harvard Islamic Society Send Off
Dining with the Harvard Muslim community, my junior year
Seeing the Lotus Temple in Delhi, India was only one of the many great experiences I've had thanks to Harvard Model Congress
Food provided by Harvard University Dining Service Workers on Thanksgiving Day
I officially declared Sociology as my concentration this fall!
I love catching the crisp morning breeze every Saturday morning!
The sunrise on the morning of Housing Day this year.
My first cookout at Harvard was successful!
My First Harvard Yale Game
An empty room? More like a clean canvas!
A picture of a white poster with "Adams House is the Best House" written on it.
hey, what's that--a liminal space?
My one of my Floridian roommates in the snow last year looking warm in a coat and jeans!
The front of Claverly Hall on Mt. Auburn Street.
This is our entryway ready for their convocation!
A snapshot of my room in the afternoon
A picture of the Charles River overlooking Harvard's River Houses
A group of PAFs after an evening of games during orientation.
I got to take photos with my thesis (or at least the first 25 pages of it) on the steps of Widener Library!
Me and a teammate sailing the first double handed sail of the year.
Cherry Blossom outside Lowell
Here's Harpreet and I with our best friends back in high school!
Mt. Auburn Street Side of Harvard University Health Services/Smith Center
Here is a picture of my family, including my mom, brothers, grandma, uncle and aunt, and cousins.
The SEF is just one way for low-income students to receive extra support towards the cost of attendance at Harvard
trips into Boston are worth it!
Photo of side of Apley Court
My blockmates and I at Winthrop House on our Housing Day!
I have very specific playlists for every mood.
My family and I during my move in.
Here's a collage of all the outfits I'll be featuring in this blog.
Harvard Yard, where many first-year students live.
A Zoom Picture from my FYRE Family!
I miss doing reading for my English and creative writing classes on my Winthrop House dorm room!
Weld Hall, the first-year dorm where I am a PAF!
A snap of an empty Tercentenary theater as I worked on my homework
My friends and I love hanging out in the roof-top common room in Winthrop House!
I make the most of my Zoom-ed reality by taking calls outside!
Here I am teaching a government class from last summer!
The view of the Charles River from Leveret House, which is right next to Winthrop House!
My Harvard Journal Project notebook, with its (not so successful) attempt to color the Harvard logo on the front.
Selfie in the Seattle Airport.
Lowellians ready to welcome first years to our home!
Snow falling outside Wigglesworth Hall, one of 17 first-year dorms.
Veritaffle
Kirkland House Opening Days 2018
Dining in at By Chloe in Fenway